i sometimes feel like i dont care about anything and that i just want to sit in my room and listen to music and not talk to anybody for a year and a half. and then i realize i have nothing to listen to. and then i wonder how i came to be like this. when i completely shut down and lost motivation and interest in absolutely everything and got to the point where even my most favourite of all artists, albums and playlists cant satisfy me.

i've never been more terrified.