i am the only person in my family (extended family included) that didn't take a degree in math, science, or business related fields.

this is true. and it wasn't until now, that this fact bothered the hell out of me. my mom, my aunts, were always pressuring me, telling me that they would love to see me graduating with great opportunities, and business or science would get me there. These thoughts were always in the back of my head. i was constantly questioning myself as an english major and now that i'm in a biology course, it made me realize how right i was going for english. As much as i loved biology in high school, it isnt for me now. I know that i have no direction whatsoever, and no idea where english will take me. but i am willing to take this chance. because when i write, i'm free. and i find so much inspiration from other people's writing, and i want to inspire others. I know i'm not a strong writer and sometimes its hard for me to find the right words and i get so frustrated and doubt myself so much. but i'm willing to learn and i'm willing to try to develop myself as a writer, and i'm willing to take on these frustrations because a part of myself believes that i can, and all of me knows that it will be worth it. this decision is for me, and for no one else. i know in the long run, it will be worth it and that everything will fall into place.

i am diane, a 19 year old english student. i am a writer.