the past is the past, but it wont be forgotten.

i know avoidance wont solve anything. running from you is cowardice. but i still feel overwhelmed by you. not because the feelings still reside, but because of my stupidity and foolishness that i've associated with you. i don't feel ready to face it all. but what i'm terrified of, is that i never will be ready. what i want is indifference, and leave everything behind me, where it belongs. my heart will never be the same. the best i can do is move forward.