"we're going to die like this you know, miserable and old .. "

update on life:
im listening to taking back sunday, and i'm semi studying for a psyc midterm that is in two days. i also have a sociology midterm the following day. im overwhelmed, but trying to stay optimistic. what i need to do, is develop better study habits; and maybe get off the computer as a try to study. my merrick came back. i missed his hair, and his ugly jacket, and his stupid comments, and his dorky laugh. now all i have to do is learn his name. and maybe strike up a conversation. but that requires bravery. i've taken up running, and trying to work 'health' into my lifestyle. i gave away my debit card in attempt to save money, and i'm trying to detox my well-being. i'm learning to let go of what needs to be let go of, and surrounding myself with positive people. there is no room for negativity when it comes to change. and in an attempt to become a stronger person, i will say this: im accepting the fact that i'm not a perfect person. what i am willing to do, however, is become a better person. i'm willing to take on major change.