an attempt at something honest.

i have to rid myself of these cynical thoughts. they are slowly eating away at me, and i'm allowing life to get the best of me. it's getting overwhelming, and remarkably tiresome. i'm at the point where i know nothing about myself, and the world around me. i know nothing about where i want to be, who i want to become, & the unknown scares the shit out of me. But with this emptiness, leaves so much room for growth and discovery.. what i need is a fresh start, a saving grace. someone, something, anything to get me out of this emotional rut that i've been digging myself deeper and deeper into these past few months.. i need to get out & learn how to breathe again.